It started 9 days ago, I decided to take a pregnancy test even though I had just miscarried our 5th pregnancy (7th little baby) weeks before..... and to my surprise it is POSITIVE I'm carrying another little one and 9 days later that positive is still there and darker!! I'm feeling so many emotions as I move forward. I know not many will understand what it feels like to be pregnant after so many losses and it is truly an indescribable pain & fear.
On Friday I decided that I had to go to the temple alone. I heard "Mom, She's ready" I pray with all my heart that this is a tender mercy sent from my Little Sonic James to help calm my nerves about this pregnancy. That although darkness has been over me for several months that this is my rainbow, and "she's ready!"
For today, I'm choosing HOPE and keeping fear in the dark because TODAY I'm pregnant and that is a blessing!!
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