Summer time

Summer time is going to be different than I had anticipated.  This different makes me ache.  I wish so many things were going to be happening but I am alive.  I have an angel son watching us and 3 beautiful children here with me.  I am sad more often than I was at the beginning stages of my loss.  Especially every 4th wk it hits me hard!!  BUT even through my sadness of the loss of my little Sonic.... I am going to make summer a blast for my little ones!  I may always have a part of my heart that has been sent to heaven with my son but I have 3 pieces I've given to little angels that are still here with me.  I know my little Sonic will take good care of the piece I've sent with him until I can see what a perfect angel he is.  But for now I will be sad and joyful!  I will try my hardest to be strong when I'm needed and sad when it's okay .   As for our NEW summer plans....

We've started swim lessons today that will bring on 9 days of fun and learning!  Today was fun I got to talk to another mom and she asked about all 4 of my little ones :) While my 3 had a blast.  Paige learned "alligator and blow bubbles mommy"  Clark likes his teacher... and Kegan was apprehensive but after lessons I asked if he was scared or had fun... The verdict "FUN" yay!!